how do u feel being a leftover?

starting dgn result A level yg mendukacitakan

perasaan sedih & serba salah bercampur baur

betul ke result aku seteruk ni

remind balik, mmg condition aku at worst sebulan b4 final

demam campak buat kedaan jd x menentu

2 minggu kat rumah mmg x bole bwat ape

study?harapan jela dgn kepale yg pening + polka dot chicken pox

hurmm...balik kolej lpas da sehat

da byk chapter da tetinggal

papepon, aku try the best cover yg tetinggal

& mase final,,, aku x pna rase macam ni dlm mane2 exam pna aku duduk

rase x ready, dgn ilmu yg x cukop di dada

& finally the result was so heartbreaking

kami pelajar2 tajaan MARA kat GMi ni x pna diberitahu

kalaw x lpas A level ni, ke mane halatuju kami

mulenye dtglah sekumpulan Admin UMP yg memberi harapan

2 jenis kos ; twinning & local

they said that point aku ni cukop baek utk apply local course kat UMP tu

at last,, very lately, the Dean said the other way

my point was just not enough, bcoz the min point is at least as twinning stud's point

mmg WTF

keling btol, cakap lain buat lain

da la UPU x dpt,,rayuan pon x sure macamane

but i still got hopes

sedare kat uitm nk tolong aku kt ctu

kwn ayah pon nk tlg masokkn ke utem

shima pon support aku, kne jumpe org besar2 tros

sumenye aku da buat

tinggal berdoa je byk

ape pulak perasaan aku tgk kwn2 berjaye?

rase malu da konpem ade

nk tegur2 punye la segan

tp apekan daye

idop mesti ditroskan

rezeki di tgn Tuhan

moga2 ade hikmah di sebalik sume ni

wassalaam...

malaysia tanah airku...mungkin

assalamualaikum
da lame aku x berblogging
kalw aku ltak post pon, maybe sket sgt yg terbace
x harap dibace org,,,malah lebih kpd diari diri sendiri
bagiku, blog ni mcm diari
tp knape laki pon nk tulis diari???
>>>jwpn aku ; to reduce long term memory <<<

x pasal2 tergerak hati, nk tulis sesuatu....
sesuatu yg dah buat hidop aku pusing 720 darjah o.O"
masih segar di ingatan,,,
dulunye aku bangge ade seorg ayah
time darjah 3,
pernah sampai dlm karangan pon aku coretkan kebaikan ayahku tersebut
tapi manusie berubah...
sejak kami adek beradek masok skolah asrama(aku kt sbp & abg2 aku kt maahad)
aku mule sedar
die hidop bagaikn bape yg tiada tanggungan(anak yg wajib diberi nafkah),,
walaopon kedudukannye dlm jwtn kerajaan sentiase stabil
rilek je tgk anak die mengikat perot,, mencari jalan pulang sendiri ke rumah waktu 1st time balik dari asrama(sesat di kuala lumpur, dosa & pahala bercampor, tp kita mesti hidop, kita perlu teros hidop,woho~)
-malas nk dtg teachers parents day tu da menjadi kewajipan-
-kedekut ta*# idong masin-

sampai skang, aku ske bergusti ngan bpk aku
darah tinggi die tu menggile, kuase veto die barak obama pon x dpt lwn
x bole diajak berbincang..suarenye lagi la, jarang skali rendah XO
nasib baek aku ade mama, yg sgt baek hati, semacam shield keluli..
dan juge ade seorg insan yg dahulunye ingin aku dekati,
kini die menjadi insan yg sgt aku sayangi,
diorg ni jd pembakar semangat...go aiman go aiman!!! >_<"

kadang2 aku iri hati tgk org laen, ade bapak yg baek, spotting, supportive...
ape yg aku mampu buat...hanyelah doa mengharapkn ayah aku ni dilembutkan hatinye
berubah menjadi insan yg penyabar dan x kedekot terhadap anak2nye sendiri...
hidop mesti diteruskn,walaopn aku gagal ke seberang sana(sume tu angan2 ayahku, bkn kehendakku sendiri)

sampai sini je ringkasan dari cerite yg sgt pnjg,,
dari hati yg merasekn,, seperti anak burung yg diikat kakinye, x mampu terbang bebas ke udare
aku kne siap pegi keje skang
.....assalamualaikum....

genap sebulan di GMi

xde pape nk komen
cume dlm sbln ni rate of money flow-out makin tinggi
tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz t(^_^t)

mlm terakhir...bkn mlm pertama

weyweywey!!!aku xde pape nk post la!!!sj je aku post bende nih..nabil dagu ar suro aku post pape.aku pon xde cite sgt senanye...ni cite aku>>>>
bkn sng nk miss 'mlm pertama' bagi psgn yg bergelar raja sehari.mlm tu ade yg akan telan viagra ataw minom secawan kopi jantan/superpower/ali cafe & mcm2 lg kopi kat supermarket tok kekal kencang sepnjg mlm.....mmg satu pengalaman yg indah bagi sape2 yg da kawen sampai ade iklan perfume perangsang yg konon2nye dpt mengingatkan kembali memori mlm pertama...tp bukan bende tu yg aku nk cite kat cni...senanye pasni aku maybe da x aktif kat mespes,blogger,ym & mcm2 lg tok jangke mase yg lame psl aku da nk blah msk GMi 6 aribuln nnt.mlm ni 4 aribln.sok aku blk kampong nk ziarah nenek aku kt johor.after blk kg tu aku stay kat rumah lg 1...well- furnished tp xde internet connection.rumah tu kat bangi seksyen 6,x jauh mne dr GMi.lgpon nnt aku mesti bz nye ar pas smbg blaja nih.so mmg da xde mase la aku nk on9 lagi.lg pon senanye aku da bosan gle dok rumah lame2.dok terperap kat rumah ni 6 bln.sape x bosan!!kne bwat kje rumah....sape ske..aku da ar jenis pmls,cpat bosan.haha!!siot tol ape aku merepek nih...bagi mereka yg homesick tu cube la biase2kn diri ngan keadaan...idop bwh ketiak mak bpk ni senanye x bole lame2..nnt korg jd budak manje..bkn nk bangge tp sjak aku msk hostel tyme form 1 sampai form 5,sikap aku mmg berubah gle bab* psl aku bole kire bape kali parent aku dtg ziarah kat skola ngan jari2 kaki & tgn aku tok tempoh 5 taun tu.so ati aku yg bsh lembab ni da jadi kering..org pggl ati kering.stat ari pertama aku msk hostel,xpnah rase homesick psl aku ade kwn2 kat skola.aku bole idop jaoh2 asalkn ade kwn & duit sentiase mengalir msk poket.ni aku nk kasi info skit psl homesick bagi panduan mereka yg still homesick psl aku ni org yg prihatin...org pggl aku kaunselor persendirian.walhal aku copy paste dr tenet je.....

petikan dr website mne tah...klu mls bace xyah ngade2 nk bace:

Cures for Homesickness

Bring a little bit of home with you.

If you're going away from home, bring your pillow or your favorite pajamas. Or maybe you have a favorite bedtime snack. If you're going to camp, maybe your mom or dad could pack it in your suitcase. You can also bring pictures of the people you'll be apart from and look at them any time you want.

Keep busy.

The more fun stuff you do, the less time you'll have to feel homesick. Try to join in activities wherever you are. If you're at camp, sign up for that kayak race and be sure to go to the Friday night dance. At a sleepover, play the games and do all the crazy dances! Even if you're not completely into it at first, you might soon start to have a good time.

Stay in touch.

This one is tricky because if you spend all your time on the phone with your parents, then you won't have time for any sleepover fun. But you can make a plan for when you'll call your mom or dad. For an overnight visit, maybe you can call once that night and again in the morning when you're ready to be picked up. With camp, you might set a regular day and time for a phone call home. You can also email or text message to stay in touch with family and friends. And if you're going to be away for a while, you might even go retro and write a letter to send through snail mail! When you do get in touch with someone, make sure to talk about the fun things you're doing!

Talk to someone where you are.

Sometimes, just telling someone that you're feeling a little homesick will help you feel better. Maybe you can tell a friend that you feel homesick and the two of you can do something fun — like have a burping contest or tell each other jokes. If you're at camp, a camp counselor would be a good person to talk with. He or she might have some ideas to help you feel better.

slamat dtg ke blog aku!!!!!!

assalamualikum & slamat sejahtera........
sebenarnye aku baru je bwat blog nih
tgk org len bwat cam best je
aku pon folo je ar
tp apelah sgt yg aku reti bwat
x pandai lagi la nk edit blog aku ni
kosong & boring
so aku nk minx tolong kat korg yg pro
saye budak baru blaja
klu slh tolong tunjokkan
biase lah...
kentut ni mcm cinte
susah nk diluahkan kat org ramai
tp selesa bile ade privacy
ok ar
jgn lupe komen
ajar aku edit blog ni kasi smat
t(^_^t)